I’m up here
I’m looking at the way down there
I’m staring through the I don’t care
It’s staring back at me
The beauty is
I’m learning how to face my beast
Starting now to find some peace
Set myself free
Over the past three months, I have undergone many transitions. Transitions in life are stressful for most people. For me, C-PTSD makes change extremely difficult to embrace.
One of the ways I cope with stress is avoidance. With the distractions of work, it was very easy to put on a smile and hide behind a mask. Unfortunately, the distractions aren’t there when I’m on vacation. Reality has finally hit me.
Sadness, regret, guilt, and self-doubt have pushed me into back into the grips of depression. I have felt enveloped by fear; essentially paralyzed for the past two weeks. HOWEVER…I will emerge. I’ve come too far to give up now. It’s time to “get back up!”
I’m moving on
Oh god just move on
Today
I don’t have to fall apart
I don’t have to be afraid….
Get back up
Get up
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