November 7, 2004
Anniversaries are common. Some anniversaries are celebratory; and other are not. Whether or not the date is joyous, an anniversary seldom passes without a moment of introspection.
Before November 7, 2004, the date was a day of celebration. November 7th is my Father’s birthday. However, November 7, 2004, was not only my Father’s birthday but also a date of personal growth.
On this date, I begged God to either end my life or give me the strength to get up off my knees and give me the courage to face my reality. As I stood up, I was not sure how I would navigate my way out of my trauma induced-psychosis. All I knew for certain was that I was ready to fight.
This November 7th, I was feeling depressed and defeated. Normally when I’m depressed, I’ll listen to sad music. Instead of wallowing in self-pity, I decided to listen to new music suggested by iTunes. The first song that played was Harder by Keala Settle. The lyrics of this song resonated deep within my soul.
When I was in that place
I’d look in the mirror wishing she could go away
Never thought that I would still be here today
I’m still fighting but I’m stronger every step I take along the way
I was reminded that I‘m still not ready to give up. I am a testament that a person can be lost and find their way back. If you’re in a bad mental place, please don’t give up. Let’s fight harder together.
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