I have felt an unexplainable amount of fatigue since the moment I opened my eyes this morning.
What’s the cause of this desire to hibernate and crawl into myself? I volunteered to take pictures at a social event tonight.
I love helping the community by donating my time to capture a moment in time. Still, the moments leading up to the actual event play havoc on my anxious mind as I fight the inevitable desire is to “SHUT DOWN.” Here are some of the questions which start to swirl around in my head:
- What will I talk about?
- Will people be able to tell that I’m screaming in the inside?
- Will I say something to embarrass myself or someone else?
- Will my need to escape be evident?
- Will I be able to be in the present moment and simply enjoy myself?
- Why can’t I just be “normal?
I can will myself not to give into my racing thoughts and try my best not to avoid social gatherings. I continually fight my desire to become a hermit.
So what is my point?
While social anxiety may not make sense to every one, it’s important to practice patience with those who struggle with it. We really don’t know the struggles/battles another person is facing. So instead of resisting it, we should embrace one another’s little quirks. When you see someone, remember to kind to them. Behind someone’s smile, there maybe a nervous soul desperately trying to fit in.
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